MuffyMaria

Found this improvement challenge... thing, on tumblr. Decided to follow it as best as I can so I can, well, improve my art skillz. :p Here it is! PencilCat's 30 Days of Art Improvement Challenge Self-Portrait - Introduce yourself - DoneDraw a figure using a reference - link to referenceDraw a figure that’s in action, using a reference - link to referenceDraw a part of the human anatomy you have trouble with. x20, with atleast 5 being skeletal/musculature studies.Draw more figures. Quick gestures and silhouettes. x20, with atleast 10 different body shapesLet’s have some fun. Design a character from this character generator. (crea

You said you cared. You said you understood. I was a fool to ignore that and I hurt your feelings. I regret it ever since, and wanted to make things right. Even after all that I did, you said you wanted to talk. And yet when I said I was sorry, you hurt me even more… You said you went through the same thing, and yet you judged me. I was afraid, lost and looking for help, and you accused me of just “seeking attention”. I saw you as a friend. I asked you to forgive me. And here I am, tired of trying, tired of pretending. Drowning in my regrets and in your words. Telling people I’m fine, that I’m going to be ok&hel

So.. A ton happened since the last post. But I'll just start by the most obvious for friends here in this site: I haven't been well lately. Ever since I graduated college and started looking for a job, I shoved my head so deep in the sand that I was blind to everything going on around me. I was so focused on my own problems, that it ruined my physical and psychological health, but most importantly, it back-lashed on my closest friends and on my family. I listened only to my darkest thoughts and let my most negative emotions take over, ending up doing and saying horrible things, hurting the people I care a lot for and disrespecting the bond I